Anxiety and a raised heartbeat - though you wouldn't know it to look at me

I practiced my exit seminar in front of my supervisor today. I remember thinking at the beginning "wow my heart is beating fast, it doesn't move like this at my peak exercise rate" and "I'm sure I'm not nervous, after all, we're both expecting him to be shred my talk because my emphasis will be wrong"

Then I sensibly focussed on something else before the "If this is how fast my heart beats when I think I'm relaxed and have one person in the audience, how bad will I be with 30" thought could be fully expressed to make me have a panic attack.

Of course, then I couldn't look at Leigh because every time he made a note, my mind went "noooooooo! I've screwed something up"

In the end the main comments were "No-one in the audience is going to understand this work, you need to hold their hand a little more and use pictures" and " show how much work those protocols you describe in one sentence actually were...with pictures mainly" :)

So, I'm off to play with pictures.